It's that time again....I'm thinking back over the year. A lot has happened....some of it hard and stressful (I went through a divorce)....some of it very good.
This might seem weird and it probably doesn't make sense. I realized the other day that it's been half of her life now. Sam has now lived as much of her life after her regression as she did before her regression. I've been waiting for this. For some stupid reason I'm kind of glad to have reached this point. I feel somewhat relieved. I think it helps me to feel like we're moving on....we're moving further away from that past that's so painful for me to remember (
see this post). Onward and upward, right?
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| "dancing" to the Spongebob theme song |
There are good things happening with all of my kids. Emily and Gabe's dad moved back to town in August, which has been good for all of us. Emily tried out for the middle school musical and is really enjoying it. Gabe (who has never been a reader) recently started reading the Harry Potter books and loves them! He's now turning off the TV to read all on his own! And Sam....she's making progress. Sometimes it's hard to explain to others what that progress is, but I see it, and her therapists see it. She is more with us than she used to be. This was the year that she started walking....something that at times I thought would never happen. She's got a lot of potential I know. If I could have one wish for 2012 it would be that she would say a word....just one word would make me happy beyond belief. It might happen and it might not. Maybe it will happen in 2013 or 2014..... I'll just keep hoping.
All in all I'd say 2011 hasn't been such a bad year.
I hope 2012 is a good year for everyone...Happy New Year!
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2011 has to be.. probably the worse year of my life. I haven't had the rug pulled out from us so much at one time than this year. I know for us.. we're entering 2012 with the hopes that it will bring us some serenity. I know.. odd.. adding serenity with autism is like trying to mix water with oil. 2012 will be more positive for us. I hope it will be more positive for you as well. I really hope you get your wish. I hope Sam says anything for you. Tommy didn't speak his first word until he was 4 :( It was very hard. Especially when EVERYONE around me kept saying "he'll talk when he's ready". That phrase bothers me.
She'll say something when she CAN. I believe she will.. just like with everything else.. it will just take longer. I have a feeling Sam is going to have a LOT to say :)
You really have had a year. May 2012 bring you peace, joy -- and words. Happy New Year!
@flappiness...thank you! I hope the year is a good one for you too!
@Rhonda...I hope this year is so much better for you. I hope it's peaceful. Thank you for the encouraging words about Sam. I think she DOES have a lot to say. I also know of kids who haven't spoken until they're 5, 6 or 7....I have hope. But if she never speaks it's not the end of the world, either.
I like what you said about having lived as much post-regression as pre-regression (sheesh that is hard to put into words!). The other night we watched an old video of our son at age 11 months saying "mama," "ball," and some other words. Now he's nonverbal, and that feels like another lifetime ago and almost like it was another child... You're right that it's very painful to remember that. :(
Maybe 2012 will be the year for some words for Sam! She sure is a gorgeous little girl!
I hope 2012 is kind to you!
Sending many prayers & positive thoughts for a wonderful, word-filled 2012!
I think it is wonderful that you have seen improvement. I know that feeling of not being able to explain it to others, but just knowing yourself. That is what matters most.
Keep moving forward!
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