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| Stupid super cute pink kitchen |
Tonight I was thinking back on the Christmases we've had since Sam was born. This will be her 4th Christmas, and it's our 2nd one with autism. I was thinking about how last Christmas was really tough for me, and this year I'm doing better. Then I started thinking back to Sam's second Christmas....the Christmas right before her regression. That was the Christmas she got her pink retro kitchen. I was so excited to give it to her, because to me it's probably the cutest play kitchen EVER! She was 20 months old. She liked it. She would hold the phone up to her ear and stir with a spoon in a pot sitting on the stove. I don't remember more because I'm pretty good at repressing painful memories. Then February hit and she didn't do that anymore. She didn't play pretend any more. She didn't use words any more. She didn't smile for the camera any more. She withdrew into herself. And the pink kitchen just sat there. It still sits there. She goes to it once in awhile but she doesn't play with it "appropriately". It sits there right in my living room and gets used as a shelf. Part of me wants to move it to the basement because it hurts to look at it, but I haven't been able to. Stupid pink kitchen.
3 comments:
It is a very cute kitchen. I can completely empathize with how it must make you feel to use it as a shelf. You are breaking my heart. I think - so close to Christmas - we have to realize that everything will happen in its own time. She will come back to it when she is ready. And don't forget that even if she is not into it now, that could change. Here, the little guy hadn't looked at his "space" books and planets for about 2.5 years - all of a sudden two weeks ago, he pulled out every one again. Time can be an enemy or we can force ourselves to see it as friend. (((HUGS))) I wish you all a very Merry Christmas. And here's to hope - it's a gift we have to give ourselves every year.
fuck that pink kitchen!
Love you, girl!
@Karen....thank you. I know, I do have hope. That's why the kitchen will probably still be sitting in the living room next year when Christmas rolls around again. :) She has been playing with more toys lately, which is a really good thing (whether she's playing like she's "supposed to" or not. I hope you have a Merry Christmas too!
@Dani...thanks for making me LMAO! Love you too! :)
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