Unglued

If you're guessing from the title that I'm coming unglued you're wrong. Although if you would have guessed that a little over a month ago you would have nailed it!

No, what I'm referring to is a new craft show in Fargo (new meaning this is only the 2nd year). From the Unglued website: "Unglued Craft Fest is an indie craft fair and bazaar bringing back traditional crafting techniques with a fresh, new flair and lots of midwest love." Now, I haven't done a craft show in many years, because they're a lot of work and usually I've found they aren't worth the trouble. But this is the kind of show I've been waiting for....a show with a fresh, new perspective!

In November I debated as to whether or not I should apply. I figured it couldn't hurt....if I got in I didn't have to do it. So I applied. On January 1st I woke up to an email saying I got in! (which is awesome because I love being accepted and I hate rejection...who doesn't). But then I started second guessing myself. I really wanted to do this show.....but that meant asking others (my mom and my sister) for help. I have a hard time asking for help. Don't get me wrong, they're always happy to help when I do ask for it, and they've never made me feel otherwise. It makes me feel better now that my sister gets paid to help (she's our PCA worker....I really need to blog about that).   But the day of the show will be at least 9 hours of asking others to take care of Sam. It also means at least 9 hours of being away from Sam...and worrying.  I thought about it. I talked it over with my mom. I (we) decided that I really should do this show. It will be good for me. I need to rely on others once in awhile. I need to be able to trust others with Sam while I'm away (for more than just an hour) and know that she'll be ok. I also need to expand my life beyond autism and epilepsy and special needs. I want to. I love to make things....working with my hands and making happy things is essential in keeping my depression away. It's always been that way for me. And I want to get out there and mingle with like minded creative-type people. I love all of my autism/special needs friends online and in real life, but there's more to life, isn't there? There has to be.

So maybe I'm making too much of this, but for me doing this show isn't just about making a few bucks (hopefully).....it's about getting out and meeting people, and making progress in my own life, and healing. Does that make sense? Well it makes sense to me, and I guess that's what matters. :)

Anyway, I know most of you reading this aren't in the FM area, but if you are, think about coming to the show....I'd love to see you!